I have been writing this blog for two weeks, and would just like to take a moment to reflect on its purpose and offer my feedback thus far.
For those of you that have ventured through "My Food Journey" tab, you already know that I am recovering from an eating disorder (meet Ed). While I dabbled in the world of bulimia for a short period of time, my most recent and continuous struggles have been those associated with BED-Binge Eating Disorder.
I have done enough research and self-educating through the years to understand how to properly fuel my body. I know what I should eat, I know when I should eat, I know moderation is key, I know treats are okay. It's not knowledge that I lack, it's the ability to not always prevent myself from binging. Enter the blog.
The number one goal of this blog is to monitor my eating. Not only is it a written account of the food I consume on a day-to-day basis, but also a photographic account. The act of taking out a camera every time I'm going to eat something really brings my awareness to the food, and how I feel in relation to the food. Already since starting this blog I have second guessed food cravings and snack cravings, truly considering if I am in fact hungry or just have the urge. Almost every time I opted out, and never felt hungry or deprived doing so.
This blog has also motivated me to eat more balanced throughout the day. I more readily know if I need more vegetables, or meat, or grains, etc. After a day of blogging I have mental satisfaction and a good sense of physical well being.
I have not binged since starting the blog. The thought of having a visual account of Ed behaviors is not appealing.
Overall, I am starting to learn that the awareness the camera brings to my food is the awareness I was striving to have pre-blog, but was unable to grasp with my own set of eyes. I see the blog as a phenomenal step towards battling Ed, and for the first time I truly believe that Ed will one day become I.
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